Actress Sarayu Blue admits she's not living up to the illusion of the ideal woman. "I'm a disaster," she gasps, "do you know how many thank-you cards I haven't written? I just can't keep up. I feel guilty if I don't remember someone's birthday on time. I feel guilty if I don't call my mom on a certain day – not even a birthday – just any day. I feel bad if I don't remember to get a present," she says.